somewhere out there

As I write this post I am lying in the hallway outside the boys bedrooms. We are having some issues with bedtime right now and it seems to give them both some comfort when I am in the hallway versus 10 feet away in the family room! I can't really complain because I had terrible nightmares when I was younger and literally slept on my parents floor until I was 15 years old. Seriously. I can't say I really mind this near nightly ritual too terribly either. It is forced quiet time that affords me the opportunity to catch up on my reading, or work a crossword puzzle, or play on the internet, or update this blog! The reason I felt called to write tonight is because as I was lying reading Mitch Albom's newest book, Have a Little Faith (which is an excellent read by the way) I overheard an old, familiar song come on the radio in Benny's room; Somewhere Out There. Do you remember that song? Somewhere out there beneath the pale blue sky. Someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight. Somewhere out there someone's saying a prayer; that we'll find one another beneath that big somewhere. I used to listen to that song when I was a teenager and imagine that there was "someone out there" who was listening to the exact same song at the exact same moment and thinking about me. I longed to feel the passion the song writer felt and to have the certainty that there was a person who would love me and dream about me when looking up at the stars at night. As I heard the song playing in Ben's room just now, a rush of emotions came over me as I realized that I don't only have one someone out there, I have three! My teenage self could not have pictured my adult life in her wildest dreams, and probably wouldn't have ever wanted to imagine she would be laying on a floor someday overcome with love for her husband and children....it's not very romantic, at least to a teenager, but it is very real and I am so blessed that my dreams came true, though perhaps not in the exact fashion I had imagined. I do feel love beyond measure...love that I give and love that I receive each and every day from Dean, Ben, and Joey. Which reminds me of another great song. You can't always get what you want; but if you try sometimes, you just might find, you get what you need. I have everything I need as I lay in this hallway tonight.