I am feeling really content these days; like everything is just as it should be. To be honest, sometimes it scares me how happy I am. This lovely trait of mine drives my husband nuts. He insists that I look for things to worry about. He's probably right. Regardless, every time I find myself looking around and thinking "How did I get all this? I have everything I have ever wanted. I don't deserve to be so lucky/happy/fulfilled/in love/loved/content" my next thought is that nervous rumble in the pit of your belly that reminds you, "Oh no. I really don't deserve all this. I really can't have it all." I feel like something has to give but I am not willing to give on anything. I suppose all I can do is enjoy this smooth, good part of the ride that is life and pray to God that he keeps things "as is" for as long as possible.
It has been a really wonderful summer. I have spent tons of time with my family and friends. We have taken some wonderful trips, enjoyed fun outings, and spent quiet (as quiet as it gets in our house at least) time at home. It has been such a blessing, this summer. It is hard to believe it is almost over. I register Ben for 1st grade this week and school starts 3 weeks from tomorrow. No more lazy days spent in the sunshine chasing balls, riding bikes, and splashing in swimming pools....at least not for Ben. Joey and I still have several more months potentially to do all those things. Ha, ha sucker!! :)
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I often feel the same way! I just learn to enjoy while it is good and thank God for all of my blessings!:) So glad things are going well...I am personally going to have a break down when Maddy goes to school all day this year:( It's going to be a big change. But I know she will have a great time at school. Hope Ben has a wonderful school year!
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