Boys:
There are so many things I wish for you. I wish you peace and happiness. I wish that you may lead a life that is challenging but rewarding and simple but full of people/experiences that make you happy. I wish that you may grow in your faith and know that there is a God who loves you and is watching over you. I wish that you will remember your mom someday when you are a father yourself. When you are watching your kids play in the backyard and spray each other with hoses, think about your mom and how she used to watch you and your brother do the same thing, her heart so full of love that she thought it might burst. And make sure you then jump in and win that water gun fight because that is what she did too!
Above all things I wish for you in the future, I wish more than anything that you find love. I am not just talking about affection or admiration but love. L.O.V.E. At the risk of making you nauseous, I am head over heels in love with your dad and there is no other person on earth that could measure up to him in my eyes. Seriously. We are nearing our 10 year wedding anniversary next month but have been together about 12 years and it is true that I love him infinitely more today then I ever did back then; and I really, really thought I loved him back then.
I went to a wedding a couple weekends ago with Nana, Aunt Sissy, and Great- Grandma. It was my cousins wedding and (it's a long story) he was actually having a "church wedding" on his 2-year wedding annivesary. The first time around they had said their vows in front of a judge so they could live together on the military base my cousin was moving to after graduating from the Air Force Academy. I thought this whole thing was kind of weird to be honest but couldn't resist a weekend away with my mom and sister so we headed out to Iowa for the festivities. I can't express how moving the ceremony was. Watching my cousin and his wife share their vows (again) this time before God, their family, and friends and to see the emotion in their eyes as they stared at each other and promised to choose each other again. It was beautiful.
And it is a choice, boys. Being happily married is a choice you will make every day of your married life. It is undoubtedly the most important choice you will ever make. As you well know, I make daddy crazy!! I am a worrywart, I obsess about EVERYTHING, I am emotional and moody and too often irritable. But daddy chooses to overlook all of those things and love me anyway. All of me. The good, the bad, and the ugly. You can choose to sweat the small stuff (like I too often do about everything BUT loving your dad) or you can just grin and bear it and love, love, love, love, love the one you're with. But choose wisely because it probably is a lot harder to do this if you're not with the right partner.
I have been kind of emotional lately leading up to our 10-year anniversary. It is amazing to see how far we have come and to imagine how far we will go. Life is hard, but loving your dad is easy. I have loved him for 12 years now and I will love him for the rest of my life and even long after I'm gone...our love will live on through you and your kids and their kids and their kids and so on and so on. Let's make that our family legacy, shall we? Our family loves each other; starting with Dean and Melanie and trickling way on down the line.
I love you so much...and love your daddy probably most of all for giving you to me.
Love,
Mom
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